I do a lot of reading about many different topics; however, there is one topic that I prefer to avoid reading due to the modern biases towards “progressivism” among most authors and “journalists”. The thing that irritates me more than anything else is the double standard that is being rammed down our throats today. It’s perfectly fine to embrace and celebrate a “gay” lifestyle today. After all, tolerance is the name of the game, right? Tolerance for anyone who falls in line with the “progressive” narrative of the Left in the West. However, men like I make the Left nervous. How dare we decide that we don’t like the idea of embracing a lifestyle that in diametric opposition to the faith that I have willingly and wholeheartedly embraced. A faith that is being maligned at every turn because it flies in the face of the “if it feels good, do it” attitude of many people today. A faith that says many things in life are “sinful”; many things more than acting on “gay” feelings. Of course, those who claim to be tolerant demonstrate none of that tolerance when faced with men like me who despise being told that we must fall into line with the supposed prevailing view of the majority of enlightened Americans. Seems to me the “enlightenment” doesn’t extend to having an open mind to opposing views.
I wasn’t raised to be “gay”, nor do I like the idea of the term itself. I have no problem with those who have embraced their self-perspective, their lifestyle, their feelings. They have every right to do so and to be happy about it. However, that also entitles me to the same rights and happiness about the life I choose to embrace instead of the one that makes others feel good about their own choices. You see, I’m not responsible for the happiness of anyone other than me. Happiness is a feeling and our feelings are our own property and, as such, under our control. It is the concept of self-control. I can choose to be happy in any situation despite the feelings that may be elicited by the circumstances. For example, when a love one dies I naturally go through the process of grieving and mourning like anyone else. However, in the midst of that process I find reasons to be happy that said loved one is no longer experiencing physical suffering; I find joy in knowing that, as far as I know, they are now in the presence of God and enjoying the rest and peace which I believe exists in His presence.
Also, in spite of my statement about not being raised to be “gay” I don’t believe I was born gay. I’ve had a great deal of time to reflect on my life and to turn over pretty much every aspect of my life repeatedly. After all my thought and consideration and after bouncing my memories and feelings off several trusted friends and mentors I am confident in saying that I developed my same-gender responses as a result of my coping strategies while being sexually molested and bullied throughout my whole life as a toddler, adolescent and teen. Having been born as a more gregarious and outgoing child who enjoyed learning and socializing, the events that eventually overtook me began to press me back into myself where I eventually remained inside a protective shell that simultaneously prevented me receiving the kind of encouragement, mentoring and support that I needed during my most impressionable time of life. My responses to the things that wounded me most deeply resulted in my missing out on the very things I needed to form my personality and desires as I should have.
I know there is no pat answer for why everyone who becomes “gay” as an adult got there. I can only speak to my own journey, and I can tell you that many have attempted to persuade me that my perception of my journey is skewed. To them I can only say, that is one opinion that I do NOT share. My opinion is mine alone and I hold to it like a bolt holds a steel girder. It makes me sick and quite angry when people who have no clue what my life has been presume that they know me. My question to them is: Who do you think you are to dictate to me how I must live my life? Who died and made you the ultimate arbiters of right and wrong? This “new” morality is really not that new. The pages of history are littered with societies that decided that “old fashioned” morality was just too out of touch with their contemporary times. And fairly quickly after they desensitized society to real right and wrong or simply rammed a “new” morality down the throats of the citizenry those societies began to crumble. Families disintegrated and nations fell out of favor and ultimately collapsed under the weight of immoral and unnatural behavior patterns that didn’t fit with reality.
Those in positions of influence and power in our “modern” societies seem to think they are much more intelligent than those who tried to change society to a more “progressive” mode of living in the past. That is always the way of men and women in power who have little self-esteem so they must lower society to be equal to them. Regardless of the power and influence that many have today, I can tell you that – with little doubt – unless the balance of power shifts back to the traditional ways that such power will dissolve into chaos and will eventually force the return of the traditional ways of thinking just for the sake of the survival of the society that remains after the fall. It is the history of the world written hundreds of times before.
So, you see, maybe a man who struggles with same-gender attraction and rejects it as a forgery is really who I am. Maybe I don’t have to toe the line of modern society, and I certainly don’t think anyone in this society has any right whatsoever to tell me how I should respond to my struggle unless I voluntarily give them permission to speak into my life. I have gathered around myself a group of trusted men who know my struggle and don’t try to sway me in any way. They seek to support me in my struggle to be authentic to who I believe myself to be. Who I believe I am far exceeds my feelings and my reactions to them. I am so much more than mere feelings, attractions and reactions. I am an adopted Son of the Most High God who loved me enough to give His One and Only Son as payment for all my sin so that He and I might have an intimate relationship that will fuel my journey through this world. I am not my sexual attractions to men any more than a heterosexual man who has never had a single hint of a desire for another man is his own sexual attractions to women. Just like that man who desires women has the obligation to be faithful to one woman, not run around sowing his seed into every woman he seeks to conquer, I have the obligation to be faithful to the wife I married and to honor the vows I made regardless of how I feel about it now.
That concept is called commitment. It is a concept that is all too foreign to people today. If “modern” and “progressive” people acquainted themselves with this concept in its most fundamental and traditional form we might actually have a better world. You see, the progressives have been responsible for the rising chaos in this world today as they attack the very foundations upon which society was once built. Picture this: a high-rise building having its foundation assaulted by jackhammers as residents remain in place in their apartments. No safety precautions have been taken and the foundation begins to crumble beneath the structure. Eventually various points in the structure begin to predictably fail and it ultimately collapses and kills those who remain inside. That is precisely what progressives are intentionally doing to Western society today and it is actually intended to cause the collapse of society with all the collateral death and mayhem associated with a structural collapse. They don’t particularly care how many must die in order to turn our world on its head so long as they remain ensconced in their positions of authority and power over what remains in the smoldering ruins. This, after all, has been the history of democracies since their inception in ancient Greece. When the vigilance of the masses ceases it doesn’t take long for the corrupt halls of power to spawn those who seek to consolidate their power with deadly consequences. If you take the time to objectively read the histories of the world’s democracies and you will see that our country, America, is following exactly the same pattern as those that have come before us.
Perhaps the people will wake up before it is too late; but I don’t hold out much hope for that. Maybe I’m just a pessimist and a cynic, but I just don’t see, outside of my church, any desire on the part of Americans to put the brakes on the corruption that has infested the halls of government from City Hall to the United States Capitol and the White House. We are no longer an honorable country who keeps commitments and treats one another with dignity and respect. We’ve become a society of people who seek their own self-interest at the expense of civility and courtesy for others. Yet we demand those same qualities be expressed towards us. Oh, to be sure there are many pockets of common sense and proper manners around our country – even in the most liberal of states; however, they are becoming fewer and farther between as our leadership continues to divide and distract the masses with unimportant issues in order to obscure their real agenda of stripping the people of their power and dignity and rights. The Constitution means nothing to most members of government today. Most of them would go to the National Archives tonight and take very copy of it, shred it and burn it to ash if they thought they could get away with it. In fact, I believe I may actually live to see that happen on live television or a live web stream as riotous cheers rise from the crowds. That’s certainly what happened when the utterly illegal and contemptible ACA was passed by Congress. That was the Left celebrating the first of what they hope to be many major victories in disassembling the American Republic on their path to torching its founding documents in favor of a “new” and “progressive” government that excludes only those who don’t agree with them. A dictatorship which is the natural end of most democracies. And sadly, those who have put their faith in government as their provider will be the ones who suffer first and the most severely. Have a great night and sleep peacefully knowing that we have tonight; for one day there will be no peaceful night.